Help needed- A Foggy Head

“No small art is it to sleep: it is necessary for that purpose to keep awake all day.”

– Friedrich Nietzsche

 

I wrote this feeling as miserable as the winter weather. Waking up gets harder everyday. I am not a morning person, but my job starts in the morning. And aside from a trip to the tropics, I have tried most of the “sleep hygiene” suggestions. But in the end, darkness conquers all. What do you do to cope with the dreary winter mornings? Be candid and help a gal gain her sanity back.

My eyelids weight so much more than my muscles’ strength

More than my will to make a living

 

Conflicting voices argue in my head as I fade away again

Wake up, remember today’s list?

 

The one millionth alarm goes off

I drag out half of my consciousness

 

The sun is resting below the horizon

Grey clouds glide in the sky

 

My surroundings are swallowed by darkness

My thoughts are drowning in a hazy spiral

 

Rain gently knocks on the window pane

I fight the pull of gravity

 

The day starts

The planet spins

 

Cloudy skies

Cloudy mind

 

I am awake

I am still asleep

 

13 Responses

  1. Hey there Em,
    So, I spent most my life struggling with SAD. There were times I wouldn’t go to work for a week because I was so incredibly down. The only thing that ever helped me was doing some sort of cardio early early in the morning, and to sleep, doing at least a two mile brisk walk in the evening before dinner. If you haven’t already tried it, I hope you do and even more so hope it helps.

    1. Thanks, I will try early cardio. I was thinking of biking to work, so maybe I will start that. It would save me a trip on an awfully full bus too.

      1. The double “early” in my initial comment was on purpose. Although 4:30 AM is considered a ridiculous time to get out of bed by most, that 4:30 rendezvous time with the treadmill would reset me for the entire day and give me time to relax and enjoy a descent breakfast. The endorphin rush that comes from my early evening work out helps me sleep better, waking up more refreshed. The only drawback is the pain in my right foot from my shitty running form, but that’s a story for another time.

  2. I read you conversation with GDOUGH and i’d like to add to it.
    I’ve never been good at getting up in the morning, but for about twenty years I owned a business which involved me catching a coach to London, 200 miles away, at 5 am. I discovered that I felt less groggy on those days when I had to get up early, than when I stayed in bed until 8 am. The longer you lie there thinking about it, the worse it gets. I don’t know whether you have a Sunday morning lie in, but if you do, when you finally crawl out of bed, do you feel better than on other days? I don’t.
    The only problem is that it’s hard to make yourself get up hours before you need to…

    1. It’s so true, when I sleep in on the weekends, I feel tired all day. I ended up getting an alarm clock that simulates sunrise and wakes me up gently. So far it’s been going good, I don’t jump up when my alarm goes off and don’t hit the snooze.

  3. Something you may want to look into is a Light Therapy Lamp. They give you the full spectrum light that you may not be getting enough of. You sit in front of them for 20 or 30 minutes, first thing in the morning.

  4. Ha! I have to get up at 4:30 every weekday to make sure my kids get to school and my wife & I get to work on time. On the too-frequent days I don’t want to get out of bed, I have a backup alarm set for 4:31, and when I STILL don’t want to get up, I do anyway. I’ve found that movement and a hot shower do a wonderful job of dispelling the doldrums.

    1. Wow, that’s awfully early to wake up. Now I feel bad about complaining because it’s just me, and I don’t have as many responsibilities as you do, and don’t need to wake up that early. But I will try doing a quick cardio in the morning, thanks.

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