I forgot…myself

“The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

i forgot..i forgot that i wanted to be an artist

when i was young, i painted, and drew, and it fed my soul

 

when i grew up, there was a major to choose

i eyed art school

my parents’ arbitrary prejudices

shot an arrow to my fragile dream

they chose math

i compromised on english literature

 

i destroyed my paintings

in a dramatic teenage fashion

with a knife

 

it left a hole in my soul

i filled it with dwelling in art galleries

lost in my mind

unable to conjure meaning

i lost myself

alas

from a deep locked chest

where brains hide things

broke free the desire

 

i want(ed) to be an artist

 

among the noises of this chaos

oh, how easily

i forgot myself

did you ever forget a part of you along the way?

31 Responses

    1. I can’t for the life of me format the stanzas in paragraph block, so I put them in a mode they have for poems and it comes in a grey box. I tried a few CSS codes to change the background to white with no luck. Any tips would be appreciated!

      1. I just use the old editor…
        They tried to push that new one on me, but for what I do in here, it was unnecessary…
        I’d suggest looking up how to switch back to classic editor if you’re using Gutenberg…

      2. There are a couple of ways to switch back. The absolute easiest one I found was a classic editor WP plugin. If you try to adjust settings without the plugin you have to remember to do it in two places, one is under settings>writing, the other is settings>page builder. When I changed only one of the settings, it didn’t work.

        As people become increasingly frustrated with the block editor, I anticipate easier ways to make the switch. I am staying with the classic editor as long as possible.

  1. I understand exactly what you were saying. Parents had a way of shooting a hole in your dreams 😢 It’s never too late to resume them.
    PS You can use the block called Verse for poetry. I don’t get a grey box 🙂

    1. haha major Bob Ross envy here! I will definitely resume, I am happy to discover this repressed desire. And also realizing I am adult now and can do whatever I want!!!!! Thank you x

  2. beautifully written!
    I had the same experience, but with sports. This year (at age 30) I’m learning how to skateboard. It is something I was always to afraid to commit to and I always regreted it. It is never to late to pick up an old passion!

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