To study or not

“If I only did what I can do, I wouldn’t do anything”

-Jacques Derrida


I’ve been studying ever since I can remember and for the most part of my life. I started school when I was six, nineteen years and two degrees later, I finished school last year, and stopped my continuous return to academia.

Is the grass really greener on this side?

Yes, and no.

Yes, because now I don’t have to juggle two part-time jobs, barely paying off the bills and affording food. All the while, worrying about some paper for a boring class that I took only for the credits. I like my job, and I get to keep my money!

No, because I miss my friends, how easy it was to make new friends, how my schedule was flexible, how I could be spontaneous. I miss learning.

Now I am in that horrifying abyss of working the same hours every day for innumerable years, with a few breathing windows of planned vacations.

But let’s hope there’s more after this waiting for my adult life.

8 Responses

  1. I can totally feel your pain… I think it has always been my biggest fear to of spending most of my life working 9-5 no flexibility… now that I’m adulting I have come to terms with the horrendous abyss. Hang in there I’m sure your journey will only flourish with opportunity and adventure

    1. I think many people are in my shoes, thanks for the words of encouragement. I wish adventures and great opportunities for you too.

    1. That’s very true. I can’t really stop learning, it has become a necessity over the years. Now at least I have more time to spare and learn new things. Thanks so much for reading and commenting.

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