To study or not

“If I only did what I can do, I wouldn’t do anything”

-Jacques Derrida


I’ve been studying ever since I can remember and for the most part of my life. I started school when I was six, nineteen years and two degrees later, I finished school last year, and stopped my continuous return to academia.

Is the grass really greener on this side?

Yes, and no.

Yes, because now I don’t have to juggle two part-time jobs, barely paying off the bills and affording food. All the while, worrying about some paper for a boring class that I took only for the credits. I like my job, and I get to keep my money!

No, because I miss my friends, how easy it was to make new friends, how my schedule was flexible, how I could be spontaneous. I miss learning.

Now I am in that horrifying abyss of working the same hours every day for innumerable years, with a few breathing windows of planned vacations.

But let’s hope there’s more after this waiting for my adult life.

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  1. I can totally feel your pain… I think it has always been my biggest fear to of spending most of my life working 9-5 no flexibility… now that I’m adulting I have come to terms with the horrendous abyss. Hang in there I’m sure your journey will only flourish with opportunity and adventure

    1. I think many people are in my shoes, thanks for the words of encouragement. I wish adventures and great opportunities for you too.

      1. Wow thank you. That made me smile and feel awesome inside!! I sincerely wish you the same…

    1. Thank you Sarish. x 🙂 That’s awesome.

      1. Of course! Anytime!❤️

  2. Never stop learning, Em. Just because you’re out of academia and working doesn’t mean you stop learning. To stop learning is to start dying. Keep blogging and honing your poetic craft. You have the gift.

    1. That’s very true. I can’t really stop learning, it has become a necessity over the years. Now at least I have more time to spare and learn new things. Thanks so much for reading and commenting.

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