“Wildflower; pick up your pretty little head,
It will get easier, your dreams are not dead.”
Nikki Rowe

An apology to me, time to be candor:


It’s convocation season

Last year, this time, I graduated


Gradually it concluded

All of it


No minutes to spare

Working two jobs

Maxed credit cards

Negative balance


Graduation will come


Hunched at the library

Crying in the bathroom stall

An impending sense of failure

Perpetually weighed down spirits


Graduation will come


Thesis defence

Tight-chested breaths

A jury of three firing shots

My shaky voice


Graduation will come


“Do you have anyone to celebrate with?”

My good-hearted professor pondered out loud

There was only me, in a cheap blazer

But oh, the world didn’t matter:


Graduation came

I was done

I was finally done


Convocation approaching

Ordering my regalia

Measuring my head size for the cap

Booking a photographer



Parents couldn’t be there

Friends canceled

Boyfriend took a new job

Then for the final blow, I broke my own heart:


I didn’t go to my graduation

My heart

My eyes

My blood

All of my being

Burned with fury


She devoted all her bits

For this day

And I let her down


Graduation day slipped away forever

Shattered, she will never forgive me


Don’t be like me

Celebrate your wins

He/she worked with fervor

Honour him/her


I won’t get a second chance

And deep inside

A wistful girl cries

Every time convocation season comes around


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  1. You’re really good at communicating your emotions through your poetry: reading this filled me with regret. But you know, you can technically have another chance to attend your graduation. You just need to get a PhD now 😉

    1. Oh no, please. haha Academia sucked the life out of me, I don’t regret it, but wouldn’t want to repeat it!

      1. Haha, I completely understand. Academia is a strange, strange environment.

  2. I agree with josh, this poem really tugs at my emotions. Graduating is such an interesting topic..,I’ve never thought much about its importance but that ceremony really can mean a lot

    1. I never thought of it as a big deal either, until I didn’t go and now it’s this big gape in my memory. If you haven’t done so yet, don’t skip the ceremony.

  3. paeansunplugged says:

    Awww this filled me with sadness.

    1. Oh no, I’m sorry. I certainly didn’t mean it to. Just wanted to tell you guys to celebrate your achievements and don’t forget to pat yourself on the back.

  4. This was very emotional and well expressed. Another setting and a much later time in life, this also applies to the retirement ceremonies that people do not go to, possibly out of denial.

    1. Thank you. I will keep that in mind and definitely go to my retirement party!

  5. Oh, Em! This put a t

    1. Oh my! I sent my reply too soon. Anyway, your poem tugged at my heart. If it’s a consolation, I did not attend my high school graduation 😉.

      1. Oh, so you understand the regret. Well, here is to more achievements and celebrations.

        1. Yes! My parents couldn’t be there also.

  6. This touched me, I enjoy your writing. You just elevated my awareness here. I definitely won’t miss mine.

    1. I’m so glad that you resonated with this. Yes, please go to your graduation and celebrate your amazing achievement x

  7. My husband almost skipped his graduation, but I pushed and pushed and he finally conceded. 😛 it ended up being a more meaningful day than he realized, but I can totally see why people skip it.

    1. He is so lucky that you were there to nudge him. yaay x

  8. That’s really sad. I didn’t even invite my family and went by myself, I just felt it was stupid to invite them at that time when my family wouldn’t even let me use the internet to use my homework but felt it was okay to take my money. I’m happy I went by myself, it’s for my own happiness.

    1. So proud of you. I should’ve done the same, but it was a bit of a difficult time then, I had just moved to another city and didn’t have a place to stay or a job yet. Still should’ve gone alone, but I’m so glad that you didn’t miss it.

      1. Oh, that must have been frustrating and difficult to even be able to go when you have to come from another city. Thank you, so glad I did it for me. ❤️ and please make the most of your achievements and celebrate when you’ve worked hard for them, you deserve to treat yourself.

        1. ❤️ ❤️

  9. I loved it!

    1. Thank you x

      1. You’re welcome

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