“Life is what happens to us while we are making other plans.”
― Allen Saunders
you might have noticed that i am going cap-less. perhaps to be cool?
nah, too late for that! i am experimenting with letting go.
letting go of strict structures, of rigidness that keeps my heart closed, of what i always have known.
maybe i am romanticizing this too much. i am aware that the capital letters, much like any other language constructs, have a purpose. and i have in mind that they serve to prevent our gradual descent into non-cohesive communication.
i want to play with the rules and observe how it stifles or feeds my creativity.
i am a planner.
but not a plan follower.
i have always fantasized and glorified being organized, tidy, the one sticking to the rules.
with conflicting forces of self-imposed discipline and tendency to fail promptly.
“maybe if i purchase a shiny new planner, i’ll be motivated”.
but the sudden organizational urge inevitably dwindled, leaving half-smudged notebooks as casualty.
recently, i have been wondering, is the constant pressure to follow plans/rules restricting instead of productive?
what about the famous and haunting “5 year plan”?
i am beginning to conclude that too much planning strangles the excitement.
the thrill of finding out what the universe has to throw at me, drowned in the obsession to reach an inflexible goal, and the tremendous horror in failing to execute the “plan”.
perhaps it’s more effective to prepare myself and strengthen the bones of my structure, rather than drawing out the “plan”. at least that way my mind is flexible and my heart is ready for the fight.
what do you think? are you a planner? or you go with the flow?